To prove something in this world we have to believe in that thing whether it exists or not….

In life, we often look for that 1 chance to prove ourselves to the World that we can do it and that what others say about us is wrong. But often we believe we don't have to chance to stand up for ourselves, so many other opportunities will pass us by. Every movie now portrays the main character as one who wants to change the world and influence the world. But in reality, are we really able to? What is defined as changing and influencing the world?

In my opinion, it is up to our definitions of how big a change we want to make on the world. Just seeing my cousins again was great, but it got me wondering: Why can't i influence others in a big way? It is just how i see it i guess. Maybe i do have an influence but in a different way?

Loving someone is hard, i am beginning to understand that. Even as God asks me to do that one thing that i really  cannot do, but i am trying. Loving someone that doesn't love you back is hard. Especially if that someone is a whole big group that doesn't even understand or want to understand me as a person. What is the use of being there? God is the answer and only reason why i keep going there and staying by that group.
No one else makes me want to stay there by them.

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand."

- Unknown